Love

Finally found someone I feel comfortable with.

Finally found someone who loves me unconditionally.

Finally having some colors in my dull life.

I'm really a lucky guy for winning over her heart. The times talking to her really opened me up and I'm really happy. The feeling of being loved, to be cared for, to be given her time and to be given her many priceless gifts really makes me really happy but at the same time allows me to question myself why I deserved such love or did I really deserve it. Self-insecurity really hurts. Her constant reassurances are the only thing that really kept me going and I really love her. I've found that special someone who I can sacrifice for and give up many factors for.

All I think about is her all day, wanting to touch her lips all days, wanting to give her the best she'll ever have.

She helps me to strive to be a better person and I promise I'll never treat her like other guys in her past.

She's the one, my first and last and I intend to keep it that way.

May this be carved in stone and the cosmos forever.

Determination

Go Hard or Go Home.

Get on the Boat or Stand on the Shore.

Push or be Pushed.

Am I Going To Waste The Past One Year?

What would I do if I don't make it.

Am I going to waste one more year and be looked down upon?

Selections are coming to a close and I want it so bloody bad.

But what if I'm just not good enough?

What if I screw up?

"Main team or not we're all brothers, equal and always a team"   bullshit.

You know yourself you don't mean it. "Now just defend our spot. Don't let people like them spoil the boat"

Let's hope it all pays off. I wouldn't say I'm the strongest or I've sacrificed the most.

But I've definitely worked harder and fucking deserve it more.

Call me selfish, self-centred, narcissistic or whatever it is.

I've reached the point where I'll do whatever it takes to enter.